I’m Writing todays offering whilst sitting in the evening sunshine, listening to the birdsong whilst the cats dine on fine cookies and the dogs sleep softly in the evening blush….. that is until someone cranks up a power plougher in the distance or a truck turns around in the country lane after serving the local garden centre…..then all hell breaks loose! haha… ok, so all hell breaks loose with one dog and the others barely lift an eyelid.
So, there’s the setting.
I am actually sitting here resting a very full tummy after eating far far faaaaaaaar toooooooo much food with my family today. The way this happened, my Aunt is staying with my cousin for a few days on holiday and after a huge BBQ at the weekend (Yes, lots of food and my speciality granny style baked cupcakes) I suggested we meet again today for lunch at a new favourite restaurant introduced to me by my cousin a couple of weeks ago…..
It’s a fabulous Brazilian restaurant on the seafront where the SALAD bar is huge!! One visit for a normal meal would be just fine and dandy but it doesn’t stop at one visit and then there’s the whole point of the restaurant…… the never ending delivery of meat, 14 flavours in fact and on and on it goes….. unless of course you do the sensible thing and turn the table post up to red instead of green. On red, they stop delivering….. guess which end hardly showed today!
There’s me, falling off the diet block. Days like today are fun and why I never refer to weight loss AS a diet. Diet is eating, you can gain weight with diet or you can lose weight with diet, so let’s leave it as “I’m still a fat person living in a smaller body than 6 months ago and slightly larger today than I was yesterday” So long as I know, it’s ok right? Because it is. Ok I mean.
Denying days like today and wincing at the offering of desert instead of gleefully discussing the options and smiling from ear to ear whilst divulging said desert and chattering away about how absolutely delicious this desert is when to the naked eye it looks like simple strawberry and vanilla ice cream…..well without this freedom, personally I find that all weight loss fails.
Besides, there are diets that talk about free foods where you can eat as much as you like of something……today was similar, I invited my cousin, her lovely boyfriend and her Momma out to lunch and they wouldn’t let me pay!! So it was free! This surely is like when a broken biscuit oozes out all the calories on breakage right? Now I will know if my cousin is reading my blog ” It’s my shout next time Cuz!!! But maybe I’ll shout us to a spa day haha”
Why is the tape at the top of this post?
Ok. Once I accepted my fat for what it had become, I took a tape measure and note pad.
I measured myself around the waist, the hips, the calves, the thighs, the top of the arms.
I noted each measurement.
I dated the paper.
I put it away.
I haven’t looked at it since.
Tomorrow, let’s see what happened next and why that paper is sooooooooo important to ignore if like me….you don’t have the available space in your brain, stress levels or pants to worry about it everytime you put something in your mouth.